As much as i want to post an entry in my blog as often as i want but some important roles needs prior attention. If there could have been a remote control that in just one click of a finger we can change and do things instantly...i would really buy one.
There has been many changes in my life and I am needing to remind myself to make time for the things that bring me balance, such as designing, reading and writing.
In the last few months I have...
-Been so down and itching to be home in the far away tropics -Cried a record high -Began mentoring all moms in the world esp. my mom Thinking of a new project to do at home for the holidays and the coming events -Contemplated what to do if i go back or changing carreers -Learned how to be a better cook to hubby -Struggled with how to handle dealing with a 4months old baby who is growing so fast -Taken out my stress on people that love me -Tried to push myself away from people because the narcissistic me strikes again -Been a friend -Been a caring and more loving daughter to my mom -Been impatient and frustrated wifey to G...giving him all talks about how lonely i am (geesh its all in my head, i realized that now.)
We all play different roles in our lives. I know I do. Often, it's a challenge to always be on top of your game on so many different realms, with so many different people and relationships, in so many different circumstances and states of mind. On top of assuming the responsibilities of your different roles, it's an additional task altogether to ensure you have proper life and health balance.
One solution that will help handle everything is to set a routine of the fundamentals that you should do every week that take care of YOU first. Set time before bed three times a week to read, do a life talks at best with your mate (im trying to do that often now to hubby) exclusive only dinner or out with hubby once a week without tagging along our little one, etc..
You cannot change the world, other people, relationships, etc. if your core is not healthy and stable enough first and foremost.
On St. Nicholas Day, December 6th, the youngsters are visited by Santa Claus (Sw. Mikolaj). In Poland, Sw. Mikolaj is not an oversized man with red pompom topped cap, red Jacket, and riding boots. Instead, he is a saintly, more dignified figure, dressed in the regal purple and gold robe, wearing a cape and bishops hat, and carrying a crosier (a crooked staff, the symbol of his bishop station). He travels the countryside on foot, occasionally astride a white horse, blessing the children, and distributing goodies to well behaved children and swishes to the naughty. Sw. Mikolaj does not live at the North Pole, but up in Heaven.
December sixth, St. Nicholas day — Dzien Swietego Mikołaja — brought a slight reprieve to gray monotonous days, especially to children, who felt that the Christmas Gwiazdka (star) - would never come. St. Nicholas was revered because of his compassion and love for orphans whom he often visited and comforted with little gifts. His name is celebrated more in some Central European countries than in Christmas itself.
My little baby girl Iza got goodies too in which we told her from Santa. She loves the red socks that was hanged with goodies inside. For sure, she will look forward to this day especially now that she is growing.
Here's my baby Izabela Wiktoria at 4months old going 5months this month.
....in here playing mat...
With her best smile..
She takes our blues away..she paints our heart with so much joy & love...she gives us more sense in our ordinary life....She lights up the whole house with her smile...she is our angel... There is nothing more we can ask for but only our baby izabela.
Last week was such a downer week, but today, ah today! I feel so rejuvenated. My heart is singing with joy. I am looking forward to a great week, great month. Good things are in store for us ahead. I feel hopeful and positive again, the world, my world is where it should be. Finally! I hope my little girl have a great day, a great week and a great month! And most of all, a wonderful Christmas with her for the first time!
There is something really weird happening in my system the whole week. It seems I can't get the right look of my site. I am trying to make my own layout but it seems there's still lots of things I need to know about this techie thing. Really I freak about this whole thing. Changing one temporary layout to another leads me to feeling high as in super over high! 'Till I lost my favicons...and I freak out to death coz i have to install it over again. So, trying to design my own favicons again but this whole damn downloading thing don't want to accept my new design..there is something wrong with pc saving system. GEESSSSSSHHHH!!!!!! Nevertheless, I still manage to put my old favicon back. Another power of patience & determination has to be put in me just to be successful with these whole thing. Anyhow, 'till now I am still on the process of making and learning my own layout. One friend voluntarily said he will make one for me. Yepey! but so kahiya coz I will be using the persons time..what are friends for anyway, right? hehehe!
So, that is all for now...i have to get back to business. I need to run a lot of errands here in the house. It's weekend by the way.
I received an email from babycenter.com today about what things that change when you have a baby. I go over the script and find it so very true.. with what I feel and the lifestyle I am living now..all these things are the changes in my life. Read on..... *************************************************************************************
What changes when you have a baby? A better question may be: What doesn't change? Here, writer and mom Rebecca Woolf lists her most notable post-baby observations. Then scroll down to read our favorite comments from readers about how their babies changed their lives.
1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.
2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.
3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.
4. You respect your body ... finally.
5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.
6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.
7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.
8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.
9. Your heart breaks much more easily.
10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.
11. Every day is a surprise.
12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)
13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.
14. You become a morning person.
15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.
And from the readers...
1. "You discover how much there is to say about one tooth." — Ashley's mom
2. "You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth." — Anonymous
3. "You now know where the sun comes from." — Charlotte
4. "You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have." — Sophie's mom
5. "You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers." — Roxanne
6. "You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night." — Kellye
7. "Silence? What's that?" — Anonymous
8. "You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having." — Brenda
9. "You discover an inner strength you never thought you had." — Ronin and Brookie's mom
10. "You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule." — Thomas' mom
11. "You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one." — Jaidyn's mom
12. "Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog." — Kara
13. "You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late." — Tracey
14. "You learn that taking a shower is a luxury." — Jayden's mom
15. "You realize that you can love a complete stranger." — Dezarae's mom
Naging boring ang mga past days ko. Di ko malaman ano ba talaga ang gusto ko. Pagnababagot ka naman oo walang ibang magawa kundi magsenti. There's goes series of questions comes to mind. Hay life naman! Bait ganito? ganyan ang mga bagay bagay? O di kaya dala din ito sa cold weather ngayon dito. No matter how i manage to aliw myself, di maiwasang mabagot at malungkot. Natural feeling ba ito or talagang praning ako? hmmmm...
Ito umandar, na naman ang pagka narcissa ko. Sa nakakakilala sa akin, alam nila pag ako'y bagot dami daming kung magawa out of boredome. Sabi nga nila before, buti padaw mabagot na ako palagi kasi I am more productive and my creative side excels more. Heheheh! Ka weirdohan ika nga. Werdo talaga ako in real life. Di mo malaman if ako'y nalulungkot or kaya masaya..o di kaya galit na. Sabi nga nga mga tao na nakakilala sa akin...di ba daw ako marunong magalit. Di lang nila alam singkatotak na power of patience na ang ginamit ko para di ako makasakit ng tao. Besides, ayaw na ayaw ko talagang magalit. Feeling ko nakakawala ng poise...nakakadis-beauty. As much as possible, I tried my best to stay calm and compose myself. Mahirap na if sasabog galit ko 'coz i really know ga'no ako magalit. Talagang lilipad ang lahat na nasa harapan ko (lol). At heto na naman ako nanaig ang lungkot at pangugulila sa aking mga mahal sa buhay sa Pinas. Dahil kaya ito sa incoming na pasko? o kaya talagang umiral ang pagka-praning ko? What yah think mga dude? heheheh.. oh ayan tumawa na naman ako. Cge na nga paalam muna.
"Researchers believe that musical training actually creates new pathways in the brain."
Does Music Make Us Smarter?
After listening to classical music, adults can do certain spatial tasks more quickly, such as putting together a jigsaw puzzle. Why does this happen? The classical music pathways in our brain are similar to the pathways weuse for spatial reasoning. When we listen to classical music, the spatial pathways are "turned on" and ready to be used.This priming makes it easier to work a puzzle quickly. But the effect lasts only a short time. Our improved spatial skills fade about an hour after we stop listening to the music. Why Classical Music? The music most people call "classical"--works by composers such as Bach, Beethoven, or Mozart--is different from music such as rock andcountry. Classical music has a more complex musical structure. Babies as young as 3 months can pick out that structure and even recognizeclassical music selections they have heard before.Researchers think the complexity of classical music is what primes the brain to solve spatial problems more quickly. So listening to classical music may have different effects on the brain than listening to other types of music. This doesn't mean that other types of music aren't good. Listening to any kind of music helps build music-related pathways in the brain. And music can have positive effects on our moods that may make learning easier.
New design ideas to beautify your homes. Been jumping from one interior designs to another to fully dress up our little cozy haven...till I stumble upon this site. So glad! since these has been the design we've been looking for. We had this idea in mind but don't know where and how to realize this. Check out the site Les Invasions Ephemeres.
Yes! at long last I gave birth to a healthy baby girl named IZABELA WIKTORIA (victoria in english) last July 22, 2007 at around 3:35pm polish time.
It is not an easy birthing though but It's worth the pain when I saw my baby. She is our life, my world now and my inspiration. She's so adorable and I can't keep my eyes off her. Post more pics of her next time...
I came accross this rants in the net today. I laugh out loud all by myself since it's so timely that it fully concides with what I been thinking.. These has been my prayers before & what I been so thankful 'till now.... I guess it's been all girl's wish to have someone who could take their blues away & simply understand & accept them for what & who they are.
These are my A list of things for a guy...
I want a guy..... who would move the hair from my eyes and then kiss me..
who'd hold my hand in line at the mall or anywhere and make all the girls jealous (hahaha)
Someone who would sing to me at random moments songs that remind him of me or us.
who would let me sleep on his chest..
a guy who would get mad at someone if they called me ugly or was mean to me.
I want someone who would call me several times a day if he went away
Someone who would let me share the latest gossips to him and then would just smile and agree at everything I said.
He would mimic me if I did or say something funny just to make me laugh
He would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it.
We'd share an umbrella in a pouring rain, and wouldn't mind if we got wet.
He would never be afraid to say "I love you" in front of his friends.
I want a boy who would kiss me at midnight on New Year's eve and count stars with me.
Who is willing to stay home with me on a Friday or Saturday night just to watch old movies or cartoons with me.
Someone who would tell me I'm beautiful & sexy, but not too often lest it gets to my head..
Someone who would try to make me laugh so much..
Who would bring me a glass of water when we both wake up in the middle of the night.
Someone who would take me as I am..
Someone I could laugh with and cry with..
Someone who would listen to my silliest jokes & never ending life's drama
Someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart...
Oh well, who would have thought that I will have him now! He is G, an excited dad & a proud hubby to a Filipina wifey.
wish the wish you wish! been so grateful that I did found him & we are finally together at last! Prayers really do come true. How about you? you have A list of things too you want for a guy? Oh well, you don't have to list all what you want but instead lift it all up to our maker and everything else will surely follow.
It is summer now here but it seems its not summer...Why? It's all because the weather is not cooperating well with the season for almost a week now. It the coldest summer this year I think. Yesterdays weather was really cooperating well. Not that cold and not that hot. It is the best time to go for a walk or be in the beach. When summertime comes, I always correlates it with beaches, out of town outings and vacation time. This year I have to spare my vacation time in preparation for my coming birthing. Yes...not so long ago or just few months ago I announced here that I am preggy and I shared it here too my agony over my pregnancy. Well, the agony will soon be over. Anytime this week I will give birth to our first child. Much preparations lately that is why at times I was in the edge over anything. My mind sometimes rants on some nonsense things that I should need to prepare before baby's coming. Maybe well, I am just overly excited about my responsibility. One can really not deny the fact, like if your pregnant a lot of apprehensions and fears sometimes just strike. And some can't understand it. Well, if your an experienced mom and been pregnant you can actually relate to my story. Anyway, I am not babbling here about my pregnancy...I started with the topic abut summer. Sorry if I cross a little away from the topic. Alright, let me go back to summer. Actually, I am just dreaming of a good summer vacation again. So I can unwind and smell the fresh summer breeze...Of course, with G this time. We never had the chance to spend summer together. Mostly late summer get away or that early holiday vacation. I know we can't have that summer dream this year since most of our time is preoccupied with baby stuffs and our house renovation. Well..well..well...we still do have a lot of time anyway...to be together!
I remember last summer I was touring Philippines from the capital city Manila down to the south of Luzon and of course explore my native Cebu. It was one of the funniest summer experience with family and friends before I depart to Poland. I took the time out with family & friends 'cuz I know it will still take me time to be spend summertime with them again. I miz the beach parties, my tanned skin during summer, sunburns here and there and that wonderful time without thinking of anything work, school & reports to make. Summer is summer! It has its own time and season of going. It is one of my best time of the year.
This year is my first summer here in Poland. Geesh! I love the summer here....the summer sunset where usually the sun sets at past 9pm. The green luscious colors of polish summer is really superb. Again, its been raining like cats & dogs for a days now. I do not know why the weather is not cooperating. I hope this week would be a fine summer weather so I could have more grasp of polish summer.... And of course, so I would enjoy my birthing. Wish me luck anyway....
Oh well.. I just visited my multiply site today.. Really needs a lot of changes now. I could see a lot of dust and cobwebs trying to make a place in my little world here in Multiply. Never had a chance to update this site.. coz I am concentrating on my other blogsite. Well..there I could earn a little moolah while blogging. Yikes! Besides, most time now is occupied with my pregnancy and preparation for my coming baby. Sorry, if i am on a hiatus for sometime now. Rest assured I will get back and update my multiply as much as I can. Of course, I miz this little home in the net. This is where i could share my innermost thoughts about things in life. Well...you've got to visit my other site too... here http:dihayco.blogspot.com ...
For now, this is all I can say. Give you a little update of me next time.
As of today I am 32 going 33 weeks of my pregnancy. Way to go....... I am counting my everydays. Can't wait to see my baby personally and hold my baby close in my arms. I been absent in multiply for sometime now. It is because i do not have the mood now to spent much time infront of the computer. I easily get exhausted and left me bored doing things in the net. Though I really reserved my multiply site to my upcoming baby. I will be making some changes on this site too one of these days. As with blogging, I have an exclusive blog site that I am maintaining almost everyday. I opted to separate my blog for the fact that it will cater exclusively for whining and bubbling on the net..and to get hold of Filipino bloggers too. Here in multiply, I will be posting mostly pictures of family..my interest in photography...my soon baby...life here in Poland and to easily exchange pics to friends and family.
It is not easy now having a big tummy and from time to time my baby is kicking. But I like it everytime i felt the kicks. I have to do more exercises too and concentrate on my class of giving birth. It will be my 5th session this Thursday and one more session to go so I will be done with the course. Though I like spending the day in the hospital coz I've got to meet first time pregnant mom like me. We can relate to almost all worries of pregnancy. And I learned a lot too in the sessions. Now, we are concentrating on the babies stuff. We started buying some baby clothes but we still need to complete the set and prepare the nursery. Still have a lot of things to do aside from the fact that our house renovation is still not done yet and here goes the baby stuff..and we needed to finish everything soon before the baby comes. It would really be a hard job for G and me. Anyways, that is life now...newly married..soon to be a mom and I am enjoying every seconds of it.
More updates of my baby and me next time..... Do widzenia!
It's me at 29 weeks pregnant.. hmm..can't wait to meet our bundles of joy. Lately, so lazy posting new things here in my multiply account. For now, that pic is one i would like to share.
think of this... how hard is it seeing someone you don't know at all suffering/slowly dying?
depressing right? you feel helpless coz you know you can't do anything and can't stop anything. it's hard for you to see the exact details coz you know.. you know that those things that are going through within those people is incomparibly hard, is unusual. you have all those mixed emotions, but honestly you really don't feel that hurt because you are not related to that person. you feel.. ONLY feel that way but you don't really feel for them, you don't really feel all the hurt that they have. you think of it, you feel sorry.. but not that you really care of right? and then you ask yourself... how is it with those people who are around that person, his/her love ones? hard right?
now think of this.... how hard is it to see any of your love ones go through such things? suffer/die?
i tell you, you can never tell how hard it is till you go throught it. you get scared when you think of it.. then after that.. back to normal... simply because you're not going through it. does it bother you really? no right? coz you won't really think deeply of how it is when all is good/well with your life. i went through the same thing... i asked myself when i see people going through such things in life... and my questions were never answered till i myself went through it. yes, it's uncomparible.. w/e you thought of when you asked yourself with that first ques. were nothing. words can never ever ever express how painful it was. once when i was in that situation? i never did recognize what my exact feelings were, coz there were so many of it mixed into just ONE me, just me. insanity? word that can probably describe w/e it was i had with those sleepless/tearful nights/days of my life. and to be honest, i'm still in the process of healing the wounds, meaning... i still do have those sleepless and tearful nights. maybe not as so often as before, but inside me? i still feel exactly the same way as that of what i had during those days. it's not just like it happens and then the memories are erase as time pass by. it stays in you, what you really have to think of is how you'll handle it. how? depending on who you are.. but for sure what should not happen is to destroy/ruin your life with such reasons. yes, life goes on... all you need to find is the reasons for you/me to do so. why and how?
This is the message sent by my bestfriend...this is in response to my blog titled 'I MIS HER'.
When I left, she was so depressed thinking I might not be there for her anymore. Never will I leave a long time friendship. Yes, we have our own lives to live now..yet the promise of our friendship will always be in our hearts.
someone is very proud of you someone is thinking of you someone misses you someone wants to talk to you someone wants to be with you someone is thankful for the support you have provided someone wants you to find them someone is celebrating your successes someone thinks you ARE a gift someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot someone wants to hug you someone loves you someone wants to lavish you with small gifts someone admires your strength someone is thinking of you and smiling someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone would do anything for you someone wants to be forgiven someone is grateful for your forgiveness someone wants to laugh with you about old times someone remembers you and wishes you were there someone needs to know that your love is unconditional somebody values your advice someone wants to tell you how much they care
For people who lives in a cold country, snow is a natural part of their lives. But for me who lives in a tropical country all her life, snow is something so magical for me. I still remember my first taste of snow. I woke up one morning from the noisy sound of my mobile phone and an SMS from my polish friend asking me how do i like winter and snow in Poland...I'm kind of astonished by the SMS I received. I was asking myself, is there a snow now outside or that how does it looks like. So, I opened my window from the room and to my surprise it was white all over the place. My eyes were opened with amusement. For me, seeing white snowflakes coming from sky is utterly magical. That very day, I saw snow for the first time in my life and I can't help but teary eyed and so happy... Happy because I have fulfilled another milestone in my young life. Another milestone because I know I have come to witness again another heavens wonderful creation.
I came to like it at first. I was like a child wanting to touch it and taste it. But later, I came to dislike it. Not because of its beauty, because It gives me hard time to dress up. I had to put a lot of clothings just to make myself warm inside. I couldn't go out much because its cold. And I came to miss Mr. sunshine..the beauty of my tropical country. They say, it was not the real polish snow I am experiencing this year. There is still so much more........and geesh..I have to be thankful..heavens spare me with too much freezing.
Today, Its snowing again. Now, I came to understand and adopt it. I came to a realization, that I am adopting now a new environment and I have to deal with it.......it's another milestone indeed.
Are you ready for another milestone in your life?
:+: Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life. - Leo Buscaglia :+:
I have come to witness again another heavens wonderful creation.
